Today, me and my family moved on with our lives. But my dad's memory still lingers in my mind. I remember him as the hands on guy who can fix everything - from broken toys to the kitchen sink. A good cook, a good singer and guitar player too. I love to hear stories of him when he went to his hunting trips. I promised to myself that someday when I grow up, if I ever go outside for trips wherever I went...even to as near as Ranau, I will share with him what I see, feel and think about the place like he did. That day never came.
When I shoot for my first paintball game years back...when I went for the paintball referee course...when I attended paintball tournaments...when I went for trips by air or by road...and when I return from all these...I do hope I can burst inside the house and said, "Papa! You won't believe what a day/journey it has been!" and show the photos or my bruises (LOL). Or maybe, he might have a blog of his own, or Facebook where I can tag him lots and lots of photos...
Yes, our lives had moved on. I had moved on...but my memories of him still lingers. All I can do now is sometimes, look outside the window of a plane, car, bus, taxi...and look at the sky...whispering, "Papa, I am going for another trip today. Let's see what this journey will bring..." or in a paintball field, "Papa, wish me luck..." His body is no longer here, but I do believe he is watching over me, somewhere...
If you never lost a close family member, or they didn't mean anything to you...you will never felt their absence and you will never understand how I feel this way. Am I still grieving, yes. That's the thing that time alone can't heal.
I miss you, papa. May your soul rest in peace.
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5 comments:
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sorry to hear the news. Be strong..
My prayer to you..
stay strong.
Deep Condolence to u and the rest of ur family. be strong, babe!
Deepest Condolences to you and your family.. you stay strong, as there be those who are living needs the support.. take care!
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