Sad today...

I never offended you...so why you wanted to make things so hard between me and him...?

I never took what is belong to you...then why make all the confusion and lies to make things harder upon us? Did I owe you anything?

I barely knew you...then why make this difficult for me..when all my life I just live my life for my own and didn't care less anything about you.

Does it make you happy to see us arguing each other because of your lies?

Does it satisfy you that what you can't have then others can't have it too?

Does it content you when others has to suffer for things that we didn't deserve?

Stop telling those lies again, I will never listen to you any longer.
You came to me at my most vulnerable moment and telling me all those things that you knew will crumble me apart.

Don't tell me to watch what I am saying...cause in the end, it was you who have to eat your words back. By gone is by gone and I will just let it go like this...but sorry, I can't trust you any longer or confide in you in everything.

Morons with brains in their balls...

Few days ago, my brother gave me the news that I was listed as one of the refs to report for duty for this November’s Paintball World Cup Asia 2008 in Kuala Lumpur. Well, it’s time to refresh my memories back with all the rules and regulations once again and yes, time to train myself. That’s the magic word - “training”.

Why train when I am only the ref, not the player?

1st - Imagine being under the hot sun and cover almost hundred games per day for more than 7 hours, less than 20minutes lunch break and to endure the shots from 0.68 calibre paintballs for free for 3 days straight.

2nd - Yes, we need to be fit and had the stamina to run, shout, jump, slide, roll on the ground and to have a good eye to minimise the bad calls.

3rd - As a lady, I need to work twice harder than the guys in the field…most likely I will be the only lady ref this year. Last year there were two - Gracy and me but this year Gracy will be playing with the Splatzoner.

4th - To be mentally prepared for any worst case scenarios.

So, as the story goes, there is this moron who look for me at the MIRC main channel and asked why I log in late last night. I told him that I came back late from KK Paintball Centre and was tired from joining the Splatzoners for team training, so I took a little rest before log into the internet. Then he asked me “You play?” I honestly replied “No, I’m going to ref this year.” then he said “cheh, I thought you play. Ref saja pulak. Need to train meh?” Who is he to underestimate the importance of paintball refs? Morons like this always thought that referees didn’t make any role in a game.

So I told him that the reason why I need to train. Then he replied “I used to be under the sun for 8 hours for 3 months when I represent Sabah for the below 18 football team.”

‘Used to’? Hello…..Come back to reality~~ did I told him that I ‘used to’? I am doing these stuff in the present time and he’s comparing me with his past. Live on lah…You play whatever sport that is, please have respect to other people. Your past glory is your past. Anyway, if you think that you are so good, you won’t be just stuck there when you are 18 right? You can still climb until now you might still in the sport…but you are not, and stuck there as a useless creep. So????

Your past glory is your past glory la…why wanna compare with my time now? For you it might just some ‘timbak-timbak’ sport, but for us, it meant more. So I am a paintball ref. At least I had the courage enough to compete myself with the guys, seeing great games, meeting great players from all around the world. I got cursed at, I got scolded, I made bad calls.

You know what, you arrogant jerk? You missed the fun that I had. =)

Your past glory (well…itu pun menumpang jak ba nama pasukan ko..bukan urang kenal ko pun) is your past glory. I am just enjoying what I am doing at the moment.

As what my mentor always told me - “You kill suckers. We teach them.” and “Everyone can be a paintball player, but not everyone can be a paintball ref.”

Game On!!!!!!!!! ^_^V

War of The In Laws

Perhaps this is a classic story like any other families. Some people dislike their mother in laws, dad in laws, daughter in laws, son in laws....sister, brothers....for any kind of reasons. I never had the thinking in such way last time, but now I began to understand why some of my married friends dislike any particular person in their spouse's side of family.

I don't know what went wrong...previously she was a nice, sweet and soft spoken young lady that my whole family approved of...and in just an instant she was engaged to my brother, she turned into a mutant that really get unto the nerves to some of us.

Huhuhuh...ok....I will make sure that if I ever get married...I will be reminded that not all of my spouse's family will like me...and for sure...I am going to dislike some of them too. Just please tell me how to handle these people.... =.=

I did it!!!

hehehehe....if you happen to read my blog, then you will notice this small bear on the right side of the page...cute kan??? =p

After almost 2 hours wondering how to create it...well I guess the results were not bad....

If any of you guys wanted to try out this gadget just go to MyFlashFetish.Com and start downloading!! =)

Us Against The World - Westlife

You and I, we’ve been at it so long
I still got the strongest fire
You and I, we still know how to talk
know how to walk that wire

Sometimes I feel like the world is against me
The sound of your voice baby that’s what saves me
When we’re together I feel so invincible

Chorus
‘Cause it’s us against the world
You and me against them all
If you’re listening to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don’t ever see the day that I won’t catch you when you fall
‘Cause it’s us against the world tonight

Verse 2
There’ll be days we’ll be on different sides
But that doesn’t last too long
We find ways to get it on track
We know how to turn back on

Sometimes I feel I can’t keep it together
then you hold me close and you make it better
When I’m with you I can feel so unbreakable

Chorus

Bridge
We’re not gonna break ‘cause we both still believe
We know what we’ve got and we’ve got what we need alright
We’re doing something right