Walls...

I don't like what I feel now.
This feeling that somehow tries to overtake who I am now....is really scaring me. I felt like...being someone else, that I don't even know who am I...and everytime I looked into the mirror, it feels like looking into a stranger's eyes.

This feeling of hatred, anger, hurt, disappointment, betrayed with a dash of fear and confusion all built up. Yes, I am angry at that person. Yes, I am disappointed at what that person did to me. Yes, I am determine not to be in contact with such person again. But...no, I don't want to hate that person. No, I don't like being mean or act mean towards that person.

This wall is slowly imprison me. I feel trapped in my own world.
Walls of hatred and bitterness. No, I don't want to live within these walls.

Is there any way for me to release this darkness that slowly pulls me down and stopping me from reaching for the light?
Can I escape from the walls that was getting higher each day...pulling me in and trap me?

Help...