Sorry If I'm Being Selfish....

Truth to be told, I feel emotionally drained since the past few days. To those who came for me for advice, I am sorry if you guys think that I am not helping nor my advice to you doesn't seem to be the words of what you want to hear.

1st - I already think of what is the best to tell you in the nicest way, the nicest words I could think of before hit it on your faces with a more harsh, truthful words that I kept inside. I would answer "Yes" "No" instead of giving you a long lecture on how to overcome your problems is because I knew in the end you would only want me to listen instead of wanted to get some advice. You will NEVER follow what I told you, nor do I expected you to follow it anyway. What do you want me to say? Or is it you prefer me to cut you in the middle of the conversation and say "Listen here, you stupid idiot, don't you have any other things to do than bug me now? This simple problem also you don't know how to solve ah?!?" You pick.

2nd - When my answer seems brief, it doesn't mean that I am being insensitive. It means that I want you to think for yourselves what those simple, short answers meant. When I said "You'll be just fine." I meant it. I had my faith in you that you will be just okay if only you didn't waste too much time and energy thinking over it. Okay, want me to be honest? Here's the truth: The so called problem of yours are NOTHING. Means you think too much to make your mind complicated. When I said "You'll be just fine means there is no problem at all." There. Is that what you all want me to tell you?

3rd - I am not married...I am single, had broken relationships before so whatever you husband and wife's problem aren't supposed to be refer to me. Please. Get some married friends to tell you how to cope with it. I don't know why your husband is cranky. I don't know why he doesn't like your cooking. I don't want to hear you complaining how he bugs you with his attitudes that you can't accept because why then you start seeing this and complaining after tying the knot.

Sorry if all of you seems to get 'uninspired' advice from me lately. If you think that I am being selfish and all, it's up to you. If you think I am being mean, heartless person who was insensitive, uncaring friend, then it's okay.

Bear to remind this in your minds - before these, how many times did I asked from you all the same to be returned back to me? Did I ever even bug you and called you all and say "Nothing, I called just because I need someone to talk" without even asking if you are busy or not. Did anyone ever even bother to ask me how is my day before start yapping at me about your so called problems. Did any of you who starts to think me becoming a selfish person ever thinks that if I got my own problems to think of? Some of you didn't even spare 5 minutes for me to pour my heart out.

Sorry if I am being selfish for not able to tell you how pity I am because of you being sad over some certain things that been repeated over and over again;

Sorry if I am being selfish for giving you a simple, short answer instead of the long ones that you prefer to hear to kill your time;

Sorry if I am being selfish because I feel down myself and I can't attend to your bad moods;

Sorry if I am being selfish for not able to tell you things that you wanted to hear only;

Sorry if I am being selfish to spare some time just for me.

Just because I seem strong, doesn't mean that I have no weaknesses.
Just because I smiled outside doesn't mean that my heart never bleeds.
Just because I walked with my heads high doesn't mean I never stumbled and fell.
Just because when I seem not listening doesn't means I never care.

Think about it.